[Pop music plays]
[Meredith] People are really romantic about the beginnings of things.
Fresh start.
Clean slate.
A world of possibility.
But no matter what new adventure you're embarking on...
[sighs]
[Meredith]... you're still you.
Well, I am going to get ready for work.
- Next time. - It's not gonna work.
A baby doesn't want to set up shop in a hostile uterus.
It's gonna happen. We just have to keep doing it until we get it right.
- Right? - Right.
[Meredith] You bring you into every new beginning in your life.
So how different can it possibly be?
[Sighs] Damn it.
[Laughs, sobs]
[Mark] Torres! Come on! Let's go!
Coming!
What the hell?
Oh! Good morning!
- What are you doing here? - I bought out our subletters.
I'm moving back in. [chuckles] Hooray!
They weren't your subletters. They were my subletters.
Well, now, um, I'm your subletter.
Hooray?
My lack of interest in seeing you is not a strategy.
I'm not, uh... I'm not playing hard to get. I don't want to see you
because I turned my life upside down for you, and you walked away
because for a week, I was cranky. You're untrustworthy,
so I don't want to see you. You're self-centered,
so I don't want to see you. I am 100 percent certain
that if I let you back into my life again, you will hurt me again.
So I don't want to see you. This isn't a ploy. I'm not pouting.
I don't want you in my life!
Get your crap out of my apartment.
[Mark] Hm.
It's good that she's mad. It means she cares, right?
Try again. Could be a false negative. Maybe you tried too early.
- What is it, day ten? - Yeah.
Totally early. Pee on a bunch of different sticks.
- Don't let the one stick win. - It's a scientific test.
I hardly think I can bend it to my will.
I'm doing three surgeries today, did four yesterday. I'm unstoppable.
And you got defeated by a piece of plastic covered in urine? Buck up.
- What is this, everybody got paged? - It's that time of year again.
- The chicks have hatched. - Is that some sort of a code?
Those chicks.
Oh. First year med students. Too dumb to find the toilet.
Good morning. Behind me stand the interns and residents of tomorrow.
Today you will show them what it's like to be a surgeon.
When you go into surgery, they go into surgery.
When they have a question, you will answer.
It's like court-ordered community service.
I'd rather be picking up trash off the side of the highway.
[Lexie] Fred Wilson, you're with Dr. Yang.
Kira Donnelley, with Dr. Grey.
Hudson Powell, with Dr. Kepner.
- Laurel Pinson... - [Alex] Mine.
- Mine. - Mine.
Laurel, you're with Dr. Karev.
Edward Taylor, Dr. Avery.
Really?
- Kim Peterson... - Hey, man.
[Richard] Dr. Yang. Um...
You were out of the game for a while so you'll be with me on my service today.
- I'd like to monitor your progress. - I think you'll be pleased.
I don't doubt it.
I will be picking my chief resident in a few months,
- and you're still a prime candidate. - The race for chief resident is on?
Since when?
- How long have you been evaluating us? - Since your first day here.
[Toilet flushes]
- Sorry. - When you gotta go, you gotta go.
OK. We are with, uh, Shepherd today. He's Neuro.
- Is he nice? - Uh, he's my husband,
so I have to say he's nice. But he's also a damn good surgeon.
Oh, thank God. I'm just glad you're not one of those " obsessed with my job
- but cold and dead inside," surgeons. - We have rounds.
Henry Burton has Von Hippel-Lindau disease and a pheochromocytoma.
It's extremely rare, causes blood pressures to skyrocket
- and it's treated with alpha blockers. - Well, look at that. He reads.
- Sorry... - Med students are like children
at the dinner table, to be seen and not heard.
- Dr. Yang. - Sir.
- Good to see you, Henry. - [Henry] Thanks.
- I wore my best gown for the occasion. - I am Dr. Bailey.
I'll be working with Dr. Webber today.
I feel like I already know you, Dr. Bailey.
Eli here has been telling me all about you.
Don't worry, I didn't tell him everything.
Oh! Hi, I did not know that you were on this case.
- Sure you didn't. - No, I didn't...
- Bailey? - Sorry, sir. Um...
[sighs] Where was I? Dr. Yang will run, uh, scans,
- and then we'll be ready to go. - Sounds like an idyllic day.
- [Henry] Who's he? - Nobody.
I mean, uh, he's... He's here observing, ignore him.
Mr. Wilson's a first-year med student and Dr. Yang is showing him the ropes.
Have you told Mr. Wilson about the most interesting aspects of the case?
He's been brought up to speed.
[Richard] Did she tell you that Henry here
originally was denied this surgery because he was uninsured?
Um... No. I mean, she didn't mention...
That's too bad about the insurance.
I got married. I'm on my wife's insurance now.
Congratulations. Your girlfriend finally wised up.
Uh, nope.
[Teddy] Oh, uh...
Sorry. Um, I'll come back later.
No, it's OK, I've got the, uh, forms right here.
Just a few signatures and we're good to go.
Great, great. Um, I'll have them back to you in a couple hours.
[Henry] Great, thanks.
That's my wife.
Upgrade, right? The ex was a cater waiter.
[Siren wailing in distance]
- Dr. Torres. - What?
- Nothing. - Well, you said my name.
Just as a, you know, "Good morning," type of thing.
Where's the stupid meat wagon?
- Morning, Dr. Hunt. Dr... - Don't.
[Siren chirps]
Brady Sullivan, 32, stable vital signs,
complains of neck and back pain, possible crush injuries.
- He was trampled by a horse. - [Owen] Horse?
A team of horses. Like, three horses, if that helps you.
Please, don't let him die on our wedding day.
[Moaning]
- Push five of morphine. - We were going downtown this morning
- to sign domestic partnership papers. - A lot of bruising here.
[Man] I had a horse-drawn carriage to pick us up from City Hall.
And bagpipers, because Brady is Scottish and he really likes being Scottish.
I feel tenderness in C6. Get X-Ray in here stat.
Brady, I'm so sorry. [Stammers] The bagpipers started up,
and they spooked the horses and they ran...
Over me! They all ran over me, Kyle! Bagpipes?
Exam shows weakness in lower extremities, got diminished reflexes.
- Move. I can't work. - Dude!
- Sorry. Sorry. - I agreed to the tuxes, but horses?
- It was supposed to be a surprise. - It was.
OK. Looks like L4 and L5 are affected. Page Shepherd. Get him ready for CT.
- Sir, I need you out of here now. - I want to stay with him.
- I have a right to stay with him. - Avery, get him out of here now.
- Move! - Sorry.
OK, everybody out now!
Now, before I have to take someone out!
You married a patient to give him insurance?
Have you lost your mind? Insurance fraud is a serious offense.
[Lexie] According to the National Medical Anti-Fraud Association,
it's not insurance fraud. It's just frowned upon.
It's highly unethical. You're a doctor, for God's sakes!
The medical community is fairly split on this.
Is it more unethical to deny a patient life-saving care,
or to marry a patient and give him that care? It can get murky.
Don't you have somewhere to be, Dr. Grey?
- I'm on Dr. Altman's service today. - [Richard] We are doctors.
We save people's lives every day without marrying them.
- You marry someone you love. - Well, I love him. I do.
I mean, I love him so much.
Dr. Altman, this isn't a joke.
I appreciate your concern, chief. But it's done. He has insurance.
You're his doctor, and now you can save his life.
Please don't tell the chief I said this, but I think what you did was awesome.
I mean, I get it. She's got a hang-up about me being perfect.
Everything comes easy for me, and I don't have any flaws.
Now that I've clearly made a mistake, she's gonna pound the crap out of it.
- So you don't think you're perfect? - No. I have lots of flaws.
I'm competitive. I'm a workaholic. I smoke when I'm stressed.
- It's disgusting. - Sure she'd love to hear all those.
Along with any other real faults you come up with.
You were that guy on Seattle Med, right? Who made a trachea from scratch?
Oh. Stem cells. Not scratch. But, yeah, that's me.
Bad-ass. I'm really interested in regenerative medicine.
Yeah? I'll show you a bladder we're growing in the lab after rounds.
- OK. - Ladies first.
- You're her teacher, Alex. - Only for the day.
[Alex sighs] Sarah Cassidy, 15,
has a rare genetic condition, called Treacher Collins Syndrome
which caused her to be born without cheekbones,
leaving her orbital floor unprotected and vulnerable to eye injury.
Which means the only extracurriculars I can sign up for
are the ones that don't involve things flying at my face.
- She rocks the chess club. - [Sarah] I just wanna play sports.
- You bowl, honey. - Not really a sport, Dad.
Do you mind if I take a look?
Scoot over a little so Laurel can see.
[Arizona] Sarah, we're going to take pieces from your skull
and transplant them into your face to rebuild new cheekbones.
- Do you have any questions or concerns? - Volleyball tryouts are in two months.
Can I try out?
Hey.
Sorry I'm late. Here are the forms.
- You are officially insured. - Amazing.
And I have nothing to give you in return. Wait. Are you hungry?
- You want a fruit cup? - Henry, you needed insurance.
- I was happy to give it. - Come on. Take the fruit cup.
Fine. I'm starving.
- That's disgusting. - I wouldn't eat it if I were dying.
[Chuckles]
I should go. Um... Good luck with your surgery.
Thank you, Dr. Altman.
Wow, volleyball player!
Digging into her skull will tack on an extra year of healing, you know.
Maybe she'll play in a couple years then.
Did you consider the stem cell surgery they did in Cincinnati
- using a cadaver bone graft? - It's too experimental.
I think it's worth considering, given her age.
I think considering her age, it's best to be conservative.
I'll see you in surgery.
- Can we, uh, go in and see the scans? - Pretty small room. Let's just wait.
[Meredith] He's got tandem lesions. A fracture translocation at L4 and 5
and a unilateral jumped facet at C5 and 6.
- [Edward] What does that mean? - One of the joints in his neck
was knocked out of place, and he's got a broken back.
- That one's your husband? - What? Yes.
Can I just say, jackpot? You get to be at work with that all day,
and go home to him at night?
- I'm gonna go see where they're at. - [Derek] I'm worried about his neck.
I don't think he should be intubated with a cervical injury.
I could do a little traction. Snap it back in before we do surgery.
- [Sighs] Hell of a wedding day. - [Callie, Derek] Hm.
They say if you want to piss off God, just tell him your plans. [chuckles]
Dude! Out!
[Sighs]
That's the biggest pheo I've ever seen.
- Is it infiltrating the kidney there? - That's the spleen, right?
- No, that's the liver. - Oh.
- OK. Is that the tumor? - That's a gallbladder.
- Wait, really? - Cross my heart, hope to die.
The image is reversed on an MRI. It's confusing at first.
I'm sure Dr. Yang can remember seeing her first MRI and empathize.
Empathy is a good quality for a chief resident,
- don't you think, Dr. Bailey? - Oh, I do, sir.
This is from the feet looking up, so that's the kidney,
that's the adrenal gland and that is the tumor.
That's the tumor? It's eating into the kidney.
Right. I was hoping we'd only have to remove the adrenal gland,
but it looks like I'm gonna have to take Henry's kidney as well.
[Callie] Dr. Shepherd will decompress the nerve roots from behind,
and then I will put in a graft and a plate for stabilization.
But, before any of that can happen,
we need to move your neck back into place.
- Fun. - I'll be done before you know it.
Sir, you probably don't want to be here for this.
- No, I'm staying. - Kyle, don't overdo it. You always...
- There's gonna be a lot of... - I'm staying. It's my fault he's here.
If he's in pain, I'll be here with him. Stop trying to kick me out.
No, you're right. You should stay.
Hold his hand.
- OK? OK, Brady. - Thank you.
- You ready? OK. - OK.
One, two, three.
- [Screaming] - Oh, my God!
[Brady sobbing, gasping]
- How'd my tumor look? - We don't have the result
from all the scans yet.
I've had 11 operations in the past three years.
I have tumors removed as a hobby. I know how this works.
You know the results but you can't tell me. So give me a hint.
I mean, look, are we talking marble? Grapefruit? Basketball?
Dr. Webber will be up shortly to discuss the results of the scan.
- Come on, Fred, what'd you see? - Oh, he's a first-year med student.
- He can't even read a scan. - Then why does he look like
he's gonna piss himself? Look at his face. He's sweating.
- What's going on? Am I gonna die? - No, I'm not... My face...
Don't let me... I'm just... Like she said, pretend I'm...
[Cristina] Stop talking.
- What'd you see, Fred? - Nothing. It's gonna be OK. Truly.
My uncle had his kidney removed and he's...
- What? - Oh, God, I'm sorry.
- Stop talking. Mr... - You have to remove my kidney?
Do you? Do you have to take out my kidney?
The tumor on your adrenal gland has compromised your kidney.
It's enough damage that we need to remove it.
I know it sounds like a lot, but it really is our best option.
Could we ask Dr. Altman what she thinks?
Dr. Altman is a cardiothoracic surgeon. This isn't her area of expertise.
I know, but...
She did this amazing thing for me. I trust her.
I'd feel a whole lot better if I knew that she was on board.
- I've got a consult waiting. - We'll be quick. Karev?
[Alex] We put together some stats
comparing the surgical options for Sarah.
As you can see, this slide shows the donor site morbidities
associated with using Sarah's own skull.
- Next slide. - And here you can see the pros and cons
of using skull bone versus cadaver bone. You can see that the benefits
- of cadaver bone are quite extensive... - Turn the lights on.
- We just got started. - Lights. Now.
Mark, I know what the research says.
So there's a chance of some donor graft complications.
Complications? No.
You, come here.
[Mark sighs]
We do your procedure, we'd incise here and here.
- What's happening? - [Mark] Stand still.
There's risk of hitting brain, causing a hematoma.
But we take the cadaver route, you avoid that completely,
which means all of this...
...doesn't even get touched. - She's a child.
And that procedure is experimental. So as the lead doctor on this case,
let me be clear. We're doing the surgery as planned.
You're a crappy listener. Add that to the list.
- What? - Just saying, there's more wrong
with you than the fact that you smoke.
I probably shouldn't have used permanent marker. My apologies.
Mrs. Burton?
Mrs. Henry Burton?
Your husband requested that I talk to you about his upcoming operation.
We would like to remove the kidney.
Well, a man can live without a kidney. If that's your recommendation.
Funny, because that's exactly what I would recommend,
but, apparently, my recommendation as chief of surgery
with over 30 years of general surgery experience under my belt isn't enough.
He would like your recommendation,
the recommendation of a cardio surgeon who happens to be his wife.
I see.
[Clears throat]
[Richard clears throat]
Yeah, I agree with your recommendation.
Go...
This is a totally inappropriate relationship! Totally inappropriate!
You want to talk to me about inappropriate relationships?
Everywhere I look in this hospital, there's inappropriate relationships.
Grey and Shepherd. Hunt and Yang.
- The other Grey and Sloan. - Dr. Bailey's dating a nurse.
- Taking full advantage. - Oh!
Ignore him. We are not dating.
[Rock music plays]
- No plus sign yet? - No. And I'm so tired
of peeing on sticks. It's exhausting.
OK, you think peeing is exhausting? Wait till you have a mewling,
poo-covered infant hanging off of your boobs 24l7.
Why is my baby gonna be poo-covered?
OK, what is that about?
That's right, do another loop there. Beautiful!
You're a fast learner.
- I have a good teacher. - [Laughs]
- Come on, you blame him? She's hot. - Don't be a pig. He's being gross.
- Not to mention unprofessional. - Well, the thong is unprofessional.
- Damn it! - Unprofessional!
What is wrong with them? I was never that dumb in med school.
- They're weak and gutless. - Boy crazy.
- Oblivious. - Slutty.
Wow. You all sound really old.
Hey, I know I'm not perfect. I know sometimes I don't listen.
I'm sorry about that. So here I am, ready to listen.
- Oh. You're ready to listen. - Like a priest at confession.
You wanna hear what I'm saying, and really take it in?
- And try to give me what I want? - Yeah. I really... I really do.
Get your crap out of my apartment.
Let's bandage him up and get him ready for the next phase.
[Meredith] Kira, do you want to take a look at these sutures before?
- Kira? - Sorry?
Are you texting?
Oh, I was just telling my boyfriend about this. Can I send him a picture,
- do you think? - [Derek, Meredith] No.
[Callie] All right, everybody, take your places.
- [Edward] Can I help roll him over? - Edward, move!
[Derek] OK, we're gonna roll him on my count. Everybody ready?
One, two, three.
[Beeping]
- He's got a junctional rhythm. - Is there a pulse with that?
[Jackson] All right. Pulse is thready, but it's there.
[Owen] He's hypotensive. Grey, hang some FFP.
- Let's push one of epi. - Lost his pulse. Starting compressions.
He could have delayed internal bleeding. Get ready for a laparotomy.
- I need to get in there! Gown me! - [Edward] What about hyperkalemia?
All right. Out, now!
I saw the monitors when you turned him. He had peaked T waves,
then a widened QRS, then a sine wave rhythm...
- Dude! - Push two of calcium,
two D50 and ten units of regular insulin IV!
[Edward sighs]
Uh, they just taught us that on Friday, so...
- What's your name? - Edward, sir.
Good save, Edward.
OK, tell me about your cadaver bone thing. For Sarah.
Really? Look at you!
Did somebody maybe listen to what someone else had to say?
OK, I get it, I suck, I'm a stuck-up self-righteous bitch,
and Callie wants nothing to do with me ever again.
But can you just drop it and tell me about the damn surgery?
[Mark] We'll inject the donor bones with stem cells.
This way the bones will grow and conform to Sarah's face.
There's a much lower chance they'll degrade over time.
Which is key, especially if you want to play sports.
Cool. Random dead guy's bones in my cheeks? [chuckles]
- My teammates will call me zombie face. - But it's still highly experimental.
- Jared... - What about the original plan?
[Arizona] This surgery is more advanced
and would decrease the chance of complications
that could make the kind of sports Sarah wants to play out of the question.
It's just sports, honey. You're good at other things.
- You paint. You draw. - Because that's all
I've been allowed to do.
I'm a tomboy, but I've never been able to be a tomboy.
I know you want me to draw and paint and bowl,
but I want to play volleyball and softball and soccer.
- I don't know. - [Sarah] If you guys don't let me
take this chance to be who I really am,
I'm gonna be more prone to teen depression,
eating disorders, drug addiction.
- Is that what you want? - You are too smart for your own good.
Because all I do is read.
Let me be a dumb jock. Mom, Dad?
Please.
[Cristina] Dividing and ligating the renal artery and vein.
Beautiful. Nice work, Dr. Yang.
Mr. Wilson? Would you like to take a look at the tumor up close?
Oh... Sure. I mean, yes.
- Yes. - OK. So these are the hilar vessels.
- My med student's gonna faint. - Catch him, people.
- [Richard] Thank you. - Sorry about that, sir.
Oh, it's fine. That's exactly why I like seeing
first-year med students here once a year.
Reminds me where I started. Humility.
That's another good quality for a chief resident.
Wouldn't you say, Dr. Bailey?
It was always one of my best qualities.
- Also, it's funny when they fall down. - Sir, you want to take a look at this.
He's doing fine. His spine's been stabilized.
- And he'll be awake soon. - He's fine? He'll be OK?
His recovery will be slow. And painful. You should be prepared for that.
[Sighs]
This was supposed to be the best day of our lives.
[Callie sighs]
You think I'm silly, I know.
With the horses and the bagpipes.
So does he.
We don't get marriage in Washington, we get domestic partnerships.
We get to go to City Hall and stand in line and sign some papers.
Mail it in, if you're even more romantic.
So, call me crazy, but...
...I just wanted the big day that everybody else gets.
And I fought for it. I organized rallies. I...
...stood in the cold outside the State House.
I had some Neanderthal throw hot coffee on me. I fought for a wedding.
And waited.
And they still said, "No."
So when we got tired of waiting, and... Brady and I went to go sign the papers,
I wanted it to be special.
He's the best thing that's ever happened to me.
And I wanted it to feel like that. Not like some trip to the DMV.
I wanted it to be special.
Instead, I nearly killed him.
[Sighs]
Things don't go the way you want them to.
Ever.
Come on. Let's go see him.
[Liquid sucking]
You paged me, chief?
[Richard] We found a cyst on Henry's pancreas that's in danger of rupturing.
Removing it means removing a large portion of his pancreas
which would make Henry a diabetic. We didn't discuss
- that possibility with him. - OK.
Do you think that's something he could live with?
I don't know.
[Richard] I hate to ask you on the spot,
Dr. Altman, but technically you are the wife,
and you are also his emergency contact person.
So I am asking you, do you think he has the support system
to manage a very tricky disease?
- I don't know. - Is there someone we could call?
- A next of kin? Anyone? - I don't know.
You've signed a marriage license, and you haven't asked him
the most basic questions on how he wants to live or die?
Do I have your permission to act as I see fit?
Yes.
That's all, Dr. Altman.
So... did you get my note?
- Eli... - I guess you got my note.
What do you think?
- I think you're dirty, is what I think. - You wanna be dirty with me?
Show me those on-call rooms you doctors are always having sex in?
I'm going home. Mm!
[Bailey moans]
If you change your mind, I get off in an hour.
[Chuckles]
[Sighs]
I have a PhD.
Um...
After college, I got a PhD. And then I went to medical school.
And I'm number one in my class.
I know you think I'm an idiot, but I'm not.
I've seen this stuff in textbooks, I've just never seen it up close before.
- Whatever. Think what you want of me. - You wanna not be an idiot?
Back up your resident, no matter what.
Never undercut them in front of their boss.
When a patient asks you for information you're not allowed to give them,
stall, or say you don't know.
Just wait long enough until the attending gets there.
The attending takes the lead.
And if you ever panic or feel faint in an OR again,
just stop thinking, "There's a body open on a table
in front of you." Just stop thinking.
And take a deep breath. It usually helps.
Wow. [chuckles]
Now, I feel like an ass.
Just disregard my evaluation.
What evaluation?
We turned in evaluations on you guys.
What did you say?
Um...
I might have used the word, uh, "heartless."
Among others, there were...
- Thank you, doctor. - OK. Lay it on me.
- Lay what on you? - The speech.
You know, "The chief is right, and what you did
- was totally inappropriate," speech. - Oh, uh, the speech.
- Yeah. - [Bailey laughs] Um...
OK, I am not dating a nurse. We are not dating.
But we are having... fun.
I... I look at him and he's pretty,
but there's no future. He's just...
[stammers] I mean, I would not have him to my house or introduce him to my child
because who knows what he would do...
He left a dirty note for me in a chart.
Now, what if the chief opened the chart and found the?
It's inappropriate! That's what he is. He is inappropriate!
But I'm gonna go with it, [chuckles] Because, you know... Why not?
That's my attitude these days, why the hell not? [laughs]
The cadaver bone doesn't have any bone-growing cells or proteins in it,
which is why we're drilling holes in it.
Would you like to hold it?
[April] What do you think you're doing?
[Alex] Teaching.
Dr. Karev, do you really think it's appropriate
for someone with so little experience to be handling these cadaver bones?
- Relax. - Karev, Kepner's right.
Your student's allowed to observe. That's all.
[Arizona] Stubborn. Passive aggressive.
Uh, I resent obligations. Just tell me when I'm getting warm here.
I choose her over you in the divorce. You know that, right?
Of course, of course. That's because you two have been friends forever.
And you and I are like... siblings. We fight, we get on each other's nerves,
but... point is, you're like family to me, Mark.
I mean that.
Patronizing. Add that to the list.
Periosteal elevator, please. Thank you.
[Swallowing, groaning]
Hi.
[Clears throat]
Here, have some water.
[Gasps]
[Whispers] Just tell me.
[Teddy] There was a large cyst on your pancreas.
When they got in there, it was necrotic and close to rupturing.
They called me to make a decision.
Because you listed me as your emergency contact person.
Oh, what did you decide?
They removed a large portion of your pancreas,
which means that you might be an insulin-dependent diabetic
for the rest of your life.
It's gonna be a very big adjustment for you.
[Henry] I'm a man who has a green thumb for tumors.
I'm familiar with adjustments.
- I really am... I'm sorry. - You're also angry.
That I put you as my emergency contact.
This was supposed to be about paperwork.
Life and death decisions wasn't... It wasn't part of our deal.
I'm 42-years old.
[Chuckles, gasps]
I lost my... mom and dad
four and... five years ago, respectively.
My sister lives in Prague, which is a longer story than you want to hear.
And when I talk to her, I tend to err on the side of,
"How are the kids?" And "Everything here is great."
Because she's broke, and...
...because my health thing is...
[soft rock plays]
It's exhausting.
I used to have a best friend, but he married a woman who made sure
that I knew that my health thing was exhausting.
And because I kept maxing out my insurance policies,
I had to switch jobs about nine times in the past five years,
so I've always just been the new guy in the cubicle by the bathroom
who takes a lot... [clears throat] Takes a lot of sick days.
That's not a guy people make friends with.
It's not my intention to make you feel sorry for me.
It's my intention to apologize and...
...and to explain that, in this city...
...you're the closest thing I have to a friend.
That's why I put you down as my emergency contact.
Not because of the fake marriage.
But because I consider you a friend.
I might be a diabetic?
Yeah.
- That sucks. - Yeah.
Hey. How you feeling?
Ow.
Brady, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
- I just wanted it to be... - Special, I know. You always do.
Shut up, I have to say this
- before I fall asleep again. - Brady... please.
I forgive you.
Do you hear that?
I forgive you.
So stop apologizing.
And please do not try to make it up to me.
'Cause you'll kill me for sure.
[Chuckles]
I love you.
He's up, if you want to do a post-op assessment.
- OK, thanks. Good night. - How long does the post-op
- assessment take? - Kira, why don't you just go home.
- No, it's cool. - You're obviously not interested
- in learning anything. - I am. I totally am.
- Today was really interesting. - Really? Because you had the chance
to observe a very rare surgery today, and you looked at your phone
the whole entire time. You had the opportunity to ask me any question
you wanted, and instead you asked me about my husband.
You've been sneaking off to the bathroom all day,
and I saw the pregnancy tests in your locker.
So me asking about your husband?
I was just trying to get on your good side.
Whatever.
[Jackson] You're kidding. They were evaluating us?
Don't worry, no one will read them.
They'll just get filed away in a room next to the morgue.
[Richard clears throat]
"Dr. Yang lacked patience and basic compassion.
Dr. Kepner, unwilling to delegate.
Dr. Avery placed his own learning opportunities before my own.
And Dr. Grey seemed to have a lot going on personally today."
The only one of you who seemed to actually teach today was Dr. Karev.
The rest of you failed. Big time.
[Chuckles]
I hate that guy.
I don't know. OK?
I don't know what my worst faults are. I try not to think about them.
I'm not proud of that. So just tell me.
What the hell do I have to cop to, to make her give me another chance?
You bail.
When things get hard, you bail.
[Soft rock plays]
"Unwilling to delegate?" I am a great delegator.
- It's key to why I'm so organized. - [Jackson chuckles]
Oh, hi. Uh, just wanted to get some water.
Well, the glasses are in that cabinet.
Ow!
Hey.
So, how'd you do today?
[Grumbles] Med student screwed me.
I did pretty good.
- Want some dinner? - Mm-hm.
[Meredith] So I peed on ten sticks today.
- Ten? - And I stole them from the clinic
because they're $15 at the store.
So you're a thief, is that what you're telling me?
A barren thief.
Look, it takes time getting pregnant.
Not for some people. Some people hit it on the first try.
- Those people are overachievers. - I am an overachiever.
That's the whole thing. I spent my whole day peeing on sticks
and not teaching my med student so I'm getting my ass kicked in this race
for chief resident, so I'm not overachieving at anything.
[Sighs] I used to be hardcore. Now, I'm softcore.
- Did we just start talking about porn? - [Chuckles]
- Stop it, I'm upset. - You're just upset
because we haven't made a baby. And I say practice makes perfect.
[Laughing]
I bail. OK? When things get hard, I walk away.
And maybe it's because I grew up an Army brat,
and we moved every 18 months. Maybe I never learned to commit.
But I'm here now.
And I'm staying because I'm gonna fight to make sure that you know
that I'm committed to this thing. I'm not perfect, but neither are you.
And you want to talk about faults? How about not being able to forgive?
At some point, you're gonna have to forgive me.
And it may as well be now because I'm in love with you, Calliope,
and you are in love with me and all I'm asking for is one more chance.
[Meredith] It's all anybody wants, right?
Clean slate? A new beginning?
- You want another chance? - Yes. More than anything.
I want another chance.
[Meredith] Like that's gonna be any easier.
Ask the guy pushing the boulder up the hill.
Nothing's easy about starting over.
Today, I found out that I'm pregnant.
With Mark's baby.
How about now?
[Meredith] Nothing at all.